Thursday, April 30, 2009

Obessed - The Movie Review

So let's turn into a movie critic for a lil minute but I dont know how this movie did in the rest of the United States but in New York the lines were cutting corners..

Ok so Beyonce. I just have to saw I love her, her music, attitude, her deminor.. Yea I'm a fan. But do I love her as a actress? Um I don't know, I dont want to say she is a bad actress. It's maybe because we are so used to seeing her as a singer and performer that it's hard to make that switch but overall I wasn't impressed.

The movie had it's intense moments in the middle but you still knew what was going to happen and the "fighting" scenes very fugazzi and boring..

Out of 5 Denisi Dz.. I give the movie 2 (D D D D D) . lol . Its a movie that you can wait on DVD or just bootleg it..

Just my thoughts.. I know the movie came out almost a month ago and I went to go see it the first day but I just got around to his lil review..

Skinny Girl Mentality

Four weeks ago I decided I wanted to develop I healthier Denisi and so embarked in my skinny girl mission. What do I mean by skinny girl mission??

Well you see skinny girls like models or the ones at the gym, are always watching what they eat.. They always get the healthy things at the store and get a salad instead of a burger at restaurants. They keep up with the exercising to make sure they don't gain a pound and are always ready for their close up.. It's a healthy conscience mentality where you are conscience of what you are putting in your body and making sure your are not only looking great but also feeling great.

I named it skinny girl instead of healthy girl because bascially skinny girl sounds better. :) If I put healthy in the equation then it's going to have to be healthy woman and woman?? No I want to hold on to my youth for as long as I can and be referred to as a "girl".

So skinny girl is the mission and skinny girl I am!

I've been on my mission for 4 weeks now and it's been working out nicely even though I relapsed last week but I'm back!! I've noticed how careless I've ate all this time. Not taking into consideration what I'm putting in my body, just looking for the gratification of the good taste. I just ate when I wanted to and what I wanted to and felt I had control. (woow smh) I realized that was not having control it was actually quite the opposite. I overate everyday! Every time I felt happy, I ate, every time I felt excited, I ate, every time I felt sad, I ate. Every time anything happened I ATE! I ate and I gained weight. Don't get me wrong I like being a chub. Chub chub more to love but I don't want to be a unhealthy chub so I'm changing it up with my skinny girl mentality.

When I go to a restaurant I have to order a burger or fat filled pasta and then eat it until I can't eat anymore? But a skinny girl goes the a restaurant has the burger or the pasta but eats about half or orders a hearty salad?? Why because she cares about herself and she is not going to pack on extra calories and fat if it's unnecessary. At my job we order lunch everyday and we order BBQ ribs or steak sandwiches or Chinese food then I get home and it's more takeout. No! why?? So much money, I was making a down payment for a heart attack. I'm taking control! Eating less.. my focus is not on food. I'll have a fruit, crackers, some tuna, a salad or soup, something quick and easy just to satisfy my hunger and if I go out with friends or go to my parents house I'll have a meal but won't pile on my plate just a little of everything, like a what? Yup a skinny girl.

I'll admit it's a lot harder than it sounds. I relapse here and there but I get over it and jump back on. When I order fast food before I order, I tell myself... Order like a skinny girl... and try to get as less as possible. This is my forth week thinking like a skinny girl and I'm 22 pounds lighter. Now I don't weight myself every other day or every week because I don't want to focus on pounds, I want to focus on myself and how I feel. Hopefully this will be a long term or even a life long change. It's hard to break a good tasting bad habit so I have to constantly remind myself .. Hey skinny girl!!..

So I can get used to eating less and not focusing on food and what I'm going to eat next, I've tried the 3 day diet for the past 4 weeks. This week I've also started working out a little about 30 min of cardio at least 3 days a week so let's see how that works out..

I will keep this movement going and in one month will post a skinny girl update..

Thanx for the support,

Simply Denisi.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Happy Tuesday!

I hope everyone had a great weekend and a happy Monday and Tuesday..

Mine? My weekend was just fabulous, really mellow just how I like it. I went to see Obsessed (review to come) then went dinner with a friend in downtown Brooklyn while my husband went paintballing. Sunday I spent it with my parents in their house just catching up and listening to my mother's rants on how my siblings don't show her enough love and how she wants to retire to Dominican Republic yesterday. I love spending time with my parents especially my mother, I mean my mother is my life. I can't imagine what I will do without her because I know no matter what happens I feel I have her there. I'm her little girl and no matter how old I get she treats me like she needs to take care of me. And I have to admit, I like it but when she starts looking at me with this ugh look and starts preaching on what I can do to be a better version of Denise, it's time to go. Then its off to my apartment to my own little world.

Then it was Monday back to work ugh.. One good thing did happen, I went to the gym. I did a small workout with my co-workers and it was great! More to come on my skinny girl mentality mission.

And now it's Tuesday, a little sore but we're a little closer to Friday ahhh...

Being that my job has been so slow, I've began working on my goals and planning how I'm going to accomplish them. Today I whipped out my statement of purpose I wrote the last time I applied to graduate school and one of my goals in the statement was to receive my graduate degree by the time I'm 25, well I'm turning 25 in September and I haven't even started. But now I'm going to get re focused and I CAN'T WAIT!

I'm going to learn new office tools so I maybe get a chance to move up in this company and I have to apply to graduate school. I have a list of about ten majors that I would be interested in. So this week I'm going to buckle down and apply!! How exciting, I can't wait.. I've also made a finicial plan so I can rid of these credit cards. So by the end of year 2009 I'll be a graduate student and almost debt free! yes..

Yours Truly...

simply Denisi <3

Friday, April 24, 2009

Newly Domesticated?

So I got married on November 22, 2008. I've been with my husband for 4 years and living with him for 2. My husband and I get along for the most part, he is my best friend and my second half but I'm battling with one part of this whole married thing and the domestic part. I don't know, I thought maybe it would come natural as soon as we got married. Well I thought wrong.

I find this very funny because I can't get myself to cook everyday or even a couple of times a week or clean everyday. I don't spend countless hours shining my pots like maybe I should. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a messy person, during the week small messes acumulate here and there and on saturday or sunday I get up and clean my house. But as far as cooking, I'm not a cook. I don't know many receipes just basic spanish food, then I would have to go food shopping. Then season everything and then it doesn't even taste right because I'm extremely rusty.. grrrr I'm having a hard time with this, it's more a hassle then enjoyment. Maybe when I start having children it'll get better but what happens in the mean time? My poor husband has to suffer? He loves home cooked meals and he is good guy lol he eats everything I attempt to cook. When I feel like having a spanish home cooked meal I call my mother and put in my order so to speak, and by the time I get there it's ready.

I don't know what the deal is with me!! Not to offend anyone but I'm SPANISH!! Wasn't I supposed to be born with this?? I'm just supposed to know these things. My mother is in her 60s and she comes home from work and immediately starts cooking and cleaning. This was what I was raised looking at. This was always the example of married life I experienced. As far as my husband, he is used to the same thing. His mother always had everyone's food seperated and ready to eat when he got home. I want to be that for him. I want to be the wife he signed up for.

I know I come home from work around six-ish and first I need to relax and watch some of my shows on my DVR. I think, hmm what am I going to have for dinner? Open the fridge get some water and order takeout. My husband gets home midnight or a little past midnight so depending what I'm getting I'll get him something and thats it! By the time I know it it's time to go to bed.

I try to make sense of this whole situation I have going on. I think maybe it's because I'm home alone most of the time so I'm not inspired? Is anyone out there going to through this dilema? HELP!
I'm going to do my part in, it's time I mature that part of our lives. He satifies all my request so why shouldn't I satisfy this one request of his? I'm going to put in work and post a update in about 2 weeks on this topic.
Keeping my fingers,
Simply Denisi <3

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Welcome to Simply Denisi

I would like to officially welcome you to my blog.

Well I finally have my domain worked out ( and now I'm just reading about how to make my blog hot fire so I can update this hopefully daily and wow you with my life or not.

I feel like this new person is sort of emerging. Since me wedding I've decided to live free and really become who ever I want to be (with my husband of course). I'm working on becoming more in touch with me and no matter what anyone says or no matter what anyone thinks do what I feel. I don't want to be afraid of taking risks or scared to put myself out there. When I walk into a room I don't want to impress anyone or look for any one's approval. I want to walk in to a room and feel confident in myself. You see I sometimes felt alone even though I had people around me like my family and my small circle of friends. I felt I was weird, an outcast and no one cared about me or what I had to say.

I'm tired of feeling that way because who cares. Why am I feeling alone when I have myself the only person who is supposed to care. I have to like me, I have to feel comfortable with myself. Who cares if no one is preying attention as long as I'm doing what feels good to me and making myself feel good. No one is watching me, I've grown up my mother is not responsible for me anymore, I'm responsible for me. I now have the same circle of people around me but I don't feel lonely anymore. I'm working on developing myself, mentally and physically.

Since I was 12 years old I've had long curly blonde or close to blonde. I've thought about cutting my hair but what will people think, what if I don't look right, they'll make fun of me. Fat girls don't look right with short hair, my husband loves long hair, he's not going to love me. But you know what why not. IIII wanted a change, I went to the salon and cut it off. I was like I don't care. If I don't feel comfortable with the shortness I'll work with it until it grows back. Now I love my hair, I've cut it until my chin and dyed it dark brown and I love it. I've never loved my hair this much. I don't care what people think because I feel good about it. When I came around with my new hair color they weren't too crazy about it. I kept it blonde before because the first time I dyed it people complimented me so much. I felt like I had to keep it up even though it was a hassle but it complimented my eyes and people felt it enhanced my beauty. But what about what I had to go through when my black roots would start growing in? What about how damaged my hair was because of all the chemicals? No one cares or minds those things because they are not me. I'm not a celebrity, I'm not here for the people. No more... So I did what I wanted, felt like doing and I couldn't be happier.

It's me.

Well it's been lovely.

Until next time.

Simply Denisi.

Monday, April 20, 2009

World Premire.. First blog being Simply Denisi...

(clearing my throat) um... Is this mic on??
Wow... so here we go...
Well I feel like I have a lot to say but no way to voice it so this is a nice opportunity to just talk.. I've made my list of goals for the year and one is them was to get ready for my book and start a diary and here we go 4/20/09 the first of many. You see I'm just a regular chick that many people seem to overlook. I'm quiet and unless you know me and I get comfortable, you really wouldn't know what's on my mind. I don't really have any deep issues or am I a weirdo that doesn't have anything to do. I'm just someone with a opinion. I'm Denise, 24 a newlywed as of Nov 22, 2008. I graduated from Hunter College in 2007 with a degree in Psychology. I'm working at a utility company as a sales rep which has nothing to do with my degree or my career goals but in this economy you have to take it where ever you can get it. It's not a bad paying job but just an extremely boring job. But as soon as I get an opportunity I'M OUT!! lol
And now about my personality.. I'm a really nice person, I think before I react, I take everyone's feeling into consideration most of time.. I don't like to deal with BS, drama, negativity or fakeness. I'm 100% real and 100% honest.. If you ask me I will tell you honestly..
My issue... now you know everyone's not 100% perfect.. So what's my issue?? My weight and what gets to me is that sometimes it's a bigger issue for the people around me (except my husband) than it is for me.. You see I was born is 11 pounds so I've been over weight since day one.. So ALL ALL ALLLLLL my life I've been hearing how much I should lose weight. How much prettier I would be. How much healthier I would be (mind you there is absolutely nothing wrong with me, health wise). How much more I would enjoy life and how much more boys would like me and people would like me if I just lose weight. I've grown up with this complex that there is no way I can be happy. It would be impossible to be happy while having this extra weight.
But now look married, college grad and I'm pretty happy with mine. How?
So I want to write a book- Diaries of a phat fat girl.. One day I will finish it... But here I've started, no one might care about this and this may just be boring talk from a nobody who is rambling on about nothing.. But I don't need anyone to care because this is for me...

Well nice to meet me?

Until next time...

Simply Denisi.