Morning Tweet: Hi lonely place, it's been a while..
It's been a while since I've been here. Nothing has changed. Still small, still grey, four walls, one window, one door and 1 favorite corner. I've been here since last night and have yet figured out my way out.
Today, I feel a little blue. I don't really know why (maybe I'm hormonal, lord knows).
Sometimes I feel like I have it all figured out and my life is going as planned. Then all of a sudden, I'm confused, I don't know what I want, what I'm doing. I hate when I'm in this place, because I feel so scared. Deeply scared where I can feel it in my heart. I just want to crawl into a corner and be left alone and just cry it out and scream for my mommy. Things are not clear today, I'm not happy today with anything.
It'll get better, tomorrow is another day but today I just want to think and be to myself.
I'm Denise, from NYC, a newlywed as of Nov 2008. I graduated from Hunter College in 2007 with a BA in Psychology. I'm working at a utility company as a sales rep which has nothing to do with my career goals but in this economy you have to take it where ever you can get it. It's not bad paying but just an extremely boring. But as soon as I can, I'm a graduate student on my way to a MSW (Master's in Social Work).
About my personality, I'm a really genuine person but I don't like to deal with drama or negativity. I'm 100% real and honest.
My issue, everyone's not 100% perfect. So what's my issue? My weight and what gets to me is that sometimes it's a bigger issue for the people around me (except my husband) than it is for me. You see I was born is 11 pounds so I've been over weight since day 1. So ALL my life I've been hearing how much I should lose weight. How much prettier I would be. How much more I would enjoy life. I've grown up with this complex that it would be impossible to be happy while having this weight.
But now look married, college grad and I'm pretty happy with me. How? lol I'm just being simply me. For more info visit: simplydenisi(dot)com